phew.
i think it has been too long. too long ever since i have properly rambled in awhile.
well, now that the trash is out, the laundry is in the washing machine, the dishes has been done and i finally get to kick back after a long day at work (yes i am aware i sound like a housewife) – i get to put my fingers to use on the blog.
its time for an update friends 
this feels weird.
i have been abit upset, in a not very good way the past few days. not the angry kind , but abit unhappy.
a fellow colleague left The Star and honestly, in a way i have actually considered her to be a very close friend of mine despite starting out as colleagues. shes the only one i go to to rant, or if i need financial help. she’d give very good advise and shes always so calm.now that shes gone.. i dont really have anyone to go to anymore.
shes also made me wonder.. what am i going to do with life now? am i going to be stuck here, and then what? continue working here for the next five years?
life, in no particular order.
future music asia festival. fantastic experience.
meeting paul teutul from the american chopper.
xedric and his first manchester united baby romper.
sundays with the man at home.
mr asahi, the first robot bartender in malaysia.
our under 18 ice hockey boys winning their first mdela in an international game. it was the IIHF CCOA in Abu Dhabi.
rhinos in sabah.
meet anderson – the man’s younger brother for the first time. this was his “gift”
lmfao’s red foo again.
ahhh yes. life. its good.
okay so i havent been sitting my ass down and actually wanting to type. i mean the intention was always there, but i just didnt (and probably couldnt) bring myself to do this.
i have shitloads to talk about. the man. the brother. the work. but honestly, life has been going so well – and so fast paced that i just didnt have much time to “rant” as much as i used to in this space. people have been trying to catch up with me through facebook and the common question is “how are you?”
the only thing i’ve got to say to that, is that honestly, life is in the fast lane now.
tonight im just going to unwind and blurt everything. you deserve this pampering dear blog. (:
lets take baby steps together now.
today by far, is one of the most exciting yet worse times i’ve ever had as far as i could remember.
i know this is a wee (UNDERSTATEMENT!) bit late – since the chinese new years is coming some more… but here’s a couple of photos to sum up the new years.
new years eve at home, with the family – and the manfriend.
then a random visit to klia2, and sepang goldcoast – after visiting papa of course. (:
today is #page16of365 and i gotta say – its been pretty fucken amazing.no plans to stop. im just going to keep going. (:
initially i wanted to write about how the year is coming to an end and how much i would like to blog about what i have done and accomplished but nawhh, i’ll save that for some other time lah.
tonight im feeling all lovey-dovey. and i need to puke em all out from my system, but keep just a wee bit more so i can go to bed with a smile on my face.
today has been crazy tiring. i went up north for a one day shoot at a fish farm and was irritated like eff by all the damn mosquito bites and the heat and the dehydration. i had eye infection/irritation and not only was the sun getting in my eye – i had to focus on using an overheating DSLR and its really hard to see if the shots are in focus or not when the eye refuses to.
le sigh.
but i got back pretty early, at about 6 ish to see the manfriend. it was really sweet of him though to come by after work and bring me to the doctors. (shitty part is now that im back from the doctors – i SUDDENLY have sore throat – WTF?!)
at that moment, i just dont feel tired anymore.
its like – everything just fell into place. i felt like everything is just .. so worth it. every sweat, every mozzie bite, just everything lah.
as cheesy or corny it may sound (not like anyone still wanders in this site right) its just that blissful moment when everything else is blocked out and at THAT moment, when he hugs me or gives me a peck on the cheek – everything else evaporates.
of course you do go back to reality after that but it is nice to have that small moment you both share. its as if to say “look we both had a long day at work – lets just rant the crap out and enjoy each others company despite what happened today” sorta feeling.
i dunkno lah – but thats how I feel.
there’s just something about your honky nose, tunnel earrings, puffy panda eyes and botak hair that just makes me feel right in place. (:
you do something to me,
that i cant explain.
sometimes i really wonder..
when one person asks another for help, does that person have rights to trash the other down and stuff just because one asked for a favor?
am i suppose to take it as it is just because i asked for help? i mean – we ARE family isnt it. isn that what family is for? or have i grown too independent to the extent that if i asked for help – it’d be ridiculous and should be unheard of?
all these years.. i have never asked for help financially – ever since i left highschool. i understand the value of a dollar. i understand it too much. im not a big spender but i dont live life frugally either. its madness – when every beginning of the month comes and i see that i keep repaying bills after bills.
its like an exboyfriend that wont go away and keeps calling you and it costs you alot more because the longer you drag it – the more you have to pay. fucken interests just kills you.
i do not want to wait till the bonus comes out – and then pay up. i dont want to wait till that long – its insane.
nyerghghhghhhhhh.
it has been one hell of a week i tell you. been going in and out with work, brother, man and mother. (in no particular order)
today has been pretty hectic as well. but i need to rant. desperately. knowing myself, i would totally forget what happened today despite it being a bad day. and if i dont let it out- im going to be feeling shitty (or just plain bad) tomorrow.
so here goes.
